kya karun ki na karun ye kaisi mushkil hai

heyy everyone...
my first time as a blogger :) everyone seems to be into this ...i thought to give it a shot too . em starting this blog more for myself than others . Its like bringing out my deeply entrenched feelings to the paper sharing it with the world ( actually starting it more out of boredom). I am a person fresh out of college sitting idle at home courtesy global crisis. The most ironic part is that em placed with a reputed software company but still at home :) ... yet to be informed about my joining date. Hmmm i am just sooo confused about everything at the moment. Should i try to get into some other company, may be some PSU ??? i dnt know ...i just feel exhausted incapable of starting it all again .. too scared of goin through all those civil engineering courses @$#@$$% .. my batchmates are doing it though ( God save their souls)..or hey should i start preparing for MBA ... i did it last year too all in vain :).. umm just waiting for that day when i l wake up in the morning as an enlightened and a realized being .......